A Love Poem

I want to tell you I love you. 

I want to say it over and over

I love you, I love you, I love you. 

Til I'm crying. Overflown.

But you wouldn't understand. 

Conjured images of 

intimacy and abandon. 

As if I've dedicated 

Myself to you. 

But it's not - 

I don't want that.

I have all these feelings 

So big and so much. 

How I appreciate you and 

How you brighten my day and

Make me laugh and smile and

Make me feel alright again. 

And I don't have the words for that. 

I was never taught them. 

All these familiar trappings 

I find myself stuck within;

Misleading and deceiving 

They twist my words. 

Make it something it's not. 

These aesthetics, they've weasled

Inside my mind, made me obsessed. 

Made it hard to see and express

The way I am, 

Outside the paradigm. 

And yet, 

I love you, 

So much and

Thank you...

Thank you for being there

And for being my friend. 

It was all I ever needed.